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Change is a constant in life. Some gd some bad. But whatever it is, you'll just hv to take in your stride.

The emotional turmoil that I hv within myself for the past 2 mths hv been unbearable. Never had I imagined that the saying abt the closest people can be your worst enemy is just so absolutely true.

7 yrs of my life I've dedicated to U, with my goal to always ensure that you hv a source of happiness and security when all other sources bring you down. Never hv I once expected any returns from you. But hw things ended was just simply unbelievable.

The whole time that I thought I knew U inside out turned out to be but a lie. Never had I imagined that U'd do what U did to me.

My congratulations to you for having found the love of your life within 9 days of our break up. But it doen't mean that you can lie through your teeth bout your status for that whole mth of Aug, esp on my birthday. If you had taken the time to tell me the truth abt ur true status since the 5th of that mth, my perception of you wldn't hv changed at all.. Which was to see U as a truthfull, brave and respectable being to hv made the confession as I know that it is a hard thing to do at that point of time.

But No... for a person who claims that she knows what she is doing, U decide to lie and cheat to a person who has been nothing but understanding to U throughout that 7 yrs. What did i do to you tht U were willing to lie bout it? I'm not angry bout U being with him.. I'm devastated that U had to LIE to me abt it. And to be STUPID enough to write in on ur blog w/o me finding out was just a 'touch of class'.

It doesn't help that the explanation U've given to me (ALL through SMS... show some sincerity girl) was that U were scared and you preferred me finding out for myself so that I can hate you and eventually forget U. This is what I get from someone who claims I am the best tht she's ever had??!!

There were more spoken abt her so called 'true feelings' for me, which at that point in time meant nothing to me. My whole world came crashing down. Never had i thought that you were capable of such things. Never had I thought you wld do that to me. Many a times I've told you, If you were attach, do tell me the truth as that's the least tht I deserve after having gone through so much...

Obviously, the true colours hv come soaring out. I hv never felt so stupid and cheated in my whole entire life. And to think that on my birthday you were already with him and yet you lied to me abt it again.. And the 2 outings we supposedly planned.. U cancelled due to your commitments to school and your inability to go out as you had kenduri the nxt day. Only to find out that you were out with him. LIES LIES LIES!

How did it all come to this?! The break up was already painful for me to bear and by doing this to me just makes U inhumane... I mean Shit to U don't I... Not even a sincere apology from U...

The sad thing is all of this cld hv been prevented... I hv already told U.. Once it ends i stand to lose so much than U... U don't hv to go through all that trouble to ensure that my heart dies bcoz it had already had.

The impact that all these hv on me is very visible for everyone to see. I look anorexic.. But with the support of my family and friends, I feel better....

This broken soul will cont to leave life as gd as it comes. Everyday's a struggle but it'll only get better in time. No more posts in the time to come... As this is My Last Post.

Hey June

The hols are here again; for those schooling that is... HeHe... Ah... Times like these I really miss school. Work has been hectic and tiring but surprisingly hasn't come to the point where I dread going.

Life has been routine. Waking up at 6.15am, going out at 7.15 or 7.30. Reaching the workplace at 8.20am and knocking off at ard 7pm latest. This happens 5 days in a week. That sums up the lives of majority of working Singaporeans. Life seriously is routine here and I'm the kind that gets bored easily so go figure.

Due to the boredom, i make it a must to spend my off days doing things that I find most fulfilling. And what is that you might ask? Well let me share the latest activity that you guys might want to try. PRAWN FISHING... Yes ppl.. fishing of prawns. Hey don't think it's as easy as grabbing a net and just scooping a load and bringing it home. The prawns are huge and you literally have to fish, as in using a rod and bait, to catch the prawn. Like fishing, it sux when you don't catch any but it's thrilling when you actually catch one.

So maybe you ppl might want to consider trying it. PS: Not recommended for whose butts can't stay sitted for long periods of time.

Right... That's it.... End.

Stuck In Reverse

So many things to share so let me just get to it.

I've finally got myself a permanent job at a local bank. Thank goodness all that patience was worth it but some people just had to spoil it saying the job is a rather painful one. Highlights the fact that not everyone wants to see you succeed. But care not, only 1 person knows how difficult things have been for me and U know how ecstatic I was when I got the job offer. I have to admit that the work is challenging but which work ain't... I'm happy.

Moving on... As the title implies, I'm stuck in a rather complicated situation. I'm stuck in a situation where I am taking a huge gamble with my happiness. Nothing's guranteed and I might again be left hanging high and dry. All this because of LOVE. Hmm.. how lame can I be... I'm not sure if this is what I want but I am definitely sure that I love U.

All I wish is for me to be happy. No more sulking, emo-ing and being angry all the time. And definitely no more being a worrier. It's exhausting... Who knows... In this period of being single yet unavailable, I might meet someone who is right for me...

Lonely

Empty... That's how I've been feeling lately... I'm at a lost to where my life is going. Many things have been happening lately but I'm not in the mood to lay it all out. But one thing's for sure, I anticipate that there'll be one less person in my life soon. It's going to have a huge impact in my life for sure.

I just don't get it. There's this saying that in one's life people come and go while some stay... But at this point in time, I've just come to a realisation that my life has definitely more people going and little of those who enter or stay. It could get pretty lonely but who am I to determine who comes and goes..

UpdateS...

Guess who's back... Back again.. HeHe... Greetings.. It's been approximately 2 months since I last bloggEd. Lazy lah... Nothing much happened accept for going to interviews, usuccessful at that, being jobless still.... Celebrated UR birthday and attending UR birthday party... And oh yah, I worked for 2 weeks with CPF. You know, the GST Offset Package thinge. Yeah.. was placed at Tampines West CC, made new friends and had fun. You heard right people, working was fun! HeHe... We had our own office, equipped with a tv and air-con... And with wireless internet from McDonald's next door, we brought our laptops to help kill the boredom. Which other job pays you to slack.. HeHe..

Err, I think I just summed up how I spent the month of June so far. Hmm... Oh... Had a chalet too. Celebrated my nephew's 1st brithday.. Cute Lil bugger.. Had fun but relatives were just plain lazy to help out. Sometimes I wonder bout the reason behind the existence of relatives. Mine are practically P.I.T.A... (Pain in the u know where)....

Well that's all. I really don't know when I'll be bloggin again next... All I know is I'll blog a post when I feel like it.. So long... Tura.. =X

ClueLess

I can't sleep.. Something's buggin me... Here's a question for you people out there. If your partner decides to celebrate his/her birthday with his/her friends, what would be your reaction? Rationalise...

I mean on one hand it is your partner's special day and he/she has got every right to decide with whom he/she would want to spend it.... rite? On the other hand, a person would usually want to celebrate THE day with the person who matters most (ie. bf/gf)... Rite? So what does it mean than if your partner chooses to celebrate with his/her mates over you? I mean in the first place, is it really an issue?

Being the ever so understanding person, I've excepted the decision U made of spending your birthday with your friends. But as of now, I somewhat feel STUPID. Why is that? Should I have disagreed with UR decision? I was disappointed but U were so happy that I couldn't bear to disagree.

Sheesh... I don't know. Clueless... Just like the title... People who may be reading... Please... enlighten me through the tagboard on your left... Appreciate it.... =X

SwEEt FindingS aT Haji Lane

For the past week, U and me have gone on an unexpected food hunt. HeHe.. I guess we just wanted to try out new cuisines and what best than going Mediterranean. My sis told me of this cafe her bf had introduced and it sat at the quiet corner of Haji Lane. I knew nuts about the place and really wanted to find out more so decided to find the place. Oh... the place is called Mosi Cafe by the way...

I guess you sheesha lovers will be more or less familiar by the area along Bali and Haji lane. I've personally only recently discovered how cool that area was. It's a wonderful place where the old school and new are fused together. Along the rows of shophouses you can chance upon pubs, cafes, ice-cream parlour and abundance of places to eat. Turkish and egyptian restaurants can be found aound the area. You may feel intimidated to walk in and have a look as the shops occupy only a small space but the colours, furniture and turkish/egyptian songs played just seem to call out to you.

I've tried the food at Mosi cafe and it's splendid. They offer a variety of sandwhiches, whose serving is big enough for 2! Hehe.. I really enjoyed the ambience of the place. It may not look like ur Starbucks, Coffee Bean or what have you.. But I just enjoy the simplicity of it all. The owner is very hospitable. He even recognised that I was a new customer... That just goes to show the effort he's put in to remember the regulars. Now that's what I call service...

Recently on Saturday, U and me dropped by the area again and this time we tried the food at Al Tazzaq. Not quite sure if it was Arabic or Turkish... Well we tried this meat platter which costs us $20.. Yes i know it's ex... But I had to try... HeHe.. The platter was made up of beef, mutton and chicken meat which were covered by a spicy sour sauce. Typically... we couldn't finish it... And after that dish, I can't stand the sight of MEAT again!!

HeHe.. No matter.. Both outings were really enjoyable and satisfying. There's no doubt that I've found my new favourite place in Haji Lane.... =X