Itz been a very mundane day today. My mind's filled with so many things to think about. Issues regarding my future, friendships, family and other relationships seem to pop into my head one after another.
My goal is to be an extremely successful person both in work and play. But I'm nowhere there.... yet. Still waiting to be enrolled with SIM (RMIT Uni). I'm kinda depressed coz most of my mates are already workin and steady financially. Personal relationships and frienships are blooming and every other thing seems to be goin great for em'. When I look at myself though, it's the entire opposite. I've lost a lot of my friends through stupid squabbles and slacker being my occupation (for now at least).
I've lost my faith in making new friends as my past experiences act as a warning. I loved my friends but rite now in their eyes I'm nothing but a backstabber and a hypocrite. To tell you the truth, I've no idea why they've accuse me of being so. To many, most people will believe that I'm a person who's nice to talk to, especially if you'd like to share ur problems with. I'm not one to start a fight, in fact I hate fights, but still when arguments arise I'm seen as the liar cum backstabber cum hypocrite. WHAT BULL*#@*!!
Fights that occured like 2-3 years ago are still fresh on their minds and till today, they seem not to have gotten over it. They're still around creatin trouble and still got the cheek to call me CHILDISH! YES FREAKIN CHILDISH!! Me... I have not contacted anyone of them since god knows when... and now I'm CHILDISH!!! Please ah.... Wats the use of their freakin brains? Even a dinosaur with a peanut size brain will retreat when defeated and never try to stir trouble again... I feel agitated everytime I think bout it but Suria's there to calm me down and always reminded me that I'm better off without hangin around with IDIOTS.
Bout my future, I'll work ever so hard to determine that my life won't be so bleak as i percept it to be. So to myself I'd like to say.... HOLD ON :X