Lately I've been thinking. Thinking bout lots of things. From my studies to my future. Honestly, I'm afraid. I worry for my results, on whether I'll find a good job, lovelife.... so many other stuff. My mind is whirling and I just can't get these thoughts out of my system. Making me worry uneccessarily... It's freakin irritating!
How can I stop all this worrying and feeling of insecurity? Is there something really wrong with me? Why am I worrying so much? Questions questions questions... That's all I have and seldom do the answers come along. I've actually just came back from KL.. Thought the trip would do me some good.. To clear my mind.. Well.. it didn't. I couldn't sleep well. Tossed and turned repeatedly. Felt restless...
All these restlessness led to an argument with U. As I'm typing this post, I'm recalling back the things we've shared. I'm really sorry for pushing the blame on you all this while. I really don't know what's wrong but this nagging feeling of being unhappy has really been affecting me. I am so sorry for causing you to be upset.. especially knowing the amount of pressure you're under from all the projects and upcoming papers you have. Looks like I've failed real bad on being the one you can count on. I seem to be that irritating black spot in your life that frequetly adds on to your burden. I'm real sorry for having been useless lately. Sincerely I apologise...
I'm not sure when you'll be reading this but I want to extend my deepest, sincerest apology to you. U.. I'm really sorry... :X