Change is a constant in life. Some gd some bad. But whatever it is, you'll just hv to take in your stride.
The emotional turmoil that I hv within myself for the past 2 mths hv been unbearable. Never had I imagined that the saying abt the closest people can be your worst enemy is just so absolutely true.
7 yrs of my life I've dedicated to U, with my goal to always ensure that you hv a source of happiness and security when all other sources bring you down. Never hv I once expected any returns from you. But hw things ended was just simply unbelievable.
The whole time that I thought I knew U inside out turned out to be but a lie. Never had I imagined that U'd do what U did to me.
My congratulations to you for having found the love of your life within 9 days of our break up. But it doen't mean that you can lie through your teeth bout your status for that whole mth of Aug, esp on my birthday. If you had taken the time to tell me the truth abt ur true status since the 5th of that mth, my perception of you wldn't hv changed at all.. Which was to see U as a truthfull, brave and respectable being to hv made the confession as I know that it is a hard thing to do at that point of time.
But No... for a person who claims that she knows what she is doing, U decide to lie and cheat to a person who has been nothing but understanding to U throughout that 7 yrs. What did i do to you tht U were willing to lie bout it? I'm not angry bout U being with him.. I'm devastated that U had to LIE to me abt it. And to be STUPID enough to write in on ur blog w/o me finding out was just a 'touch of class'.
It doesn't help that the explanation U've given to me (ALL through SMS... show some sincerity girl) was that U were scared and you preferred me finding out for myself so that I can hate you and eventually forget U. This is what I get from someone who claims I am the best tht she's ever had??!!
There were more spoken abt her so called 'true feelings' for me, which at that point in time meant nothing to me. My whole world came crashing down. Never had i thought that you were capable of such things. Never had I thought you wld do that to me. Many a times I've told you, If you were attach, do tell me the truth as that's the least tht I deserve after having gone through so much...
Obviously, the true colours hv come soaring out. I hv never felt so stupid and cheated in my whole entire life. And to think that on my birthday you were already with him and yet you lied to me abt it again.. And the 2 outings we supposedly planned.. U cancelled due to your commitments to school and your inability to go out as you had kenduri the nxt day. Only to find out that you were out with him. LIES LIES LIES!
How did it all come to this?! The break up was already painful for me to bear and by doing this to me just makes U inhumane... I mean Shit to U don't I... Not even a sincere apology from U...
The sad thing is all of this cld hv been prevented... I hv already told U.. Once it ends i stand to lose so much than U... U don't hv to go through all that trouble to ensure that my heart dies bcoz it had already had.
The impact that all these hv on me is very visible for everyone to see. I look anorexic.. But with the support of my family and friends, I feel better....
This broken soul will cont to leave life as gd as it comes. Everyday's a struggle but it'll only get better in time. No more posts in the time to come... As this is My Last Post.